Chasing the Sunset

There's nothing more beautiful than a Sunday sunset.

I spent my last weekend on a mission - a mission to view the sunset just as it retired between the snow-capped mountains. It certainly was a success, if I do say so myself. A wonderful night with some awesome friends.

Hm. Lots of stuff has been going on.

And yet, I still persist to focus on the smaller things that I have. Like a sunset. Time with friends. A pretty picture. Whatever it is. I've had some really deep conversations since I last blogged, and I suppose you could say things haven't really gotten better by any extent. TCAPs have worn me out, so many projects, grades that I just can't keep up with, I'm getting buried in my own grave. But y'know what? I've realized that there are so many things to look forward to past all of this. It's such a relieving feeling...to be free of all that binds us. All of our flaws, our problems, we can just...let it go.

Letting go. That sounds familiar.

Similar to my events on Sunday. Chasing the sunset. Finding closure to something that burns so passionately, yet not something that is necessarily a good thing. I've been hurting so much, so dreadfully much these last couple of weeks (couple? I've lost count.) But the thing is, I have such great people like Mark and Mikey (hope you're reading guys) that really trudge me through the worst of times. I've been figuratively chasing the sunset all these days, desperately trying to see something that has been so hurtful finally, gracefully come to a close. But unfortunately, the sun has been blaring hot these last weeks. It's noon in my progression of closure, full swing and not letting down. But you know what?

Let it be.

I've learned something today, this last week, that has given me strength to keep on going. You just have to realize what you have. The small things. What do I have? Well, the thing is, I don't have much. Not now. But I've come to terms with that, I've acquired wisdom through my realization. And that's what counts the most. One day I'll be able to see the moon in this ordeal.

I sure hope so.