Us Against the World

I can't really sleep and I felt inspired.

Have you ever took a moment to step back and reflect how minuscule you are in a universe that is simply unfathomable to the mortal conscious? It's really this sort of stuff that keeps me up in the middle of the night and just makes me...think. Even making the analogy to a puzzle piece isn't good enough to express the mass quantities that make up everything. It just really makes you stop and realize...it's you against the world.

The thing is, that's not necessarily a bad thing. Just because you're defined as against the world doesn't mean that you have to run against the grain. Against the world can mean that you may utilize all that the world has to offer. Rather than cower at the tremendous offerings, one takes that and makes the world everything that THEY want it to be. Possibly, I have achieved that recently to the fullest extent. That ability to say that I have control of the wheel in the car that coasts and sometimes careens down the road of life in the drivers seat rather than the passenger.

For example, I had someone I work with tell me something very uplifting tonight. They told me "Joe, you did an excellent job working tonight and did a great job communicating with others." Well, shit. What do I say to that? Not only was this mentioned, but the topic also came up that this leadership "could be exemplified in future jobs, my career, my life in general when it comes to that point."

...what does that even have to do with the concept earlier? XD

I don't really know. I'm tired, it's late, I'm just in a really great mood. That's not necessarily something that I can say too often. Is my current situation in life ideal? By no means. But what I have come to terms with is that self-acceptance, and that what other people express shouldn't influence my behavior towards anything. I actually talked to a good friend of mine about that recently, and I hope they're reading just to see how long of a ways that can take you.

I'm not sure how to end this blog. End it the way that you would like to.