Target Acquired

What a fantastic spring break.

After an entire week of spending time with the people I love, I am sad to say I am finally back home. It's hard to tell where my home truly is after being in such a place like Florida. Being there brought back a childish and nostalgic feeling that I haven't felt in a long time, except I was with the only people I would ever want to be with. New memories were made that I will always cherish and never forget. I left nearly as much in Florida as it did with me, just such a new found perspective of the country and further exciting my desire to travel in the future. Disney was pretty much all I expected - over hyped and over priced - but all that aside, I really had a fantastic experience in the park. The magic of teenage angst was in the air and we were all breathing it in. It felt like nothing could bring us down.

Well, it's all over now.

Back on to the radar. Back to the same, regular lifestyle. It feels as if all the memories and freedom from Florida have all been stripped away. We've all simply been dropped back into life, right back into the same position we were right before this journey. Except this time, there is no escape. There are no means of fleeing  the everyday troubles we all encounter. Just tomorrow, we will be thrown back into school to stress us out even more as we become painfully closer and closer to the end of the year. A time, frankly, I am agonizingly waiting for. It hit me hard yesterday knowing that the big pinnacle of the year for me, the trip, was now done and over with. Even now, I'm still in denial. I just can't believe that all of the problems, the sadness, the loneliness, the stress that was waiting for me back here has finally caught up with me. I feel no different than before I left.

I've become the target once more.

I made the analogy of the radar last week. How strong my desire was to just drop off the radar and live anonymously with people I love and would do anything for to adventure amongst the world with no limits nor bounds. Florida has made me realize that I want that feeling more than ever. In fact, Florida may have even made me feel worse. Such a perfect place like Florida made me realize all that is beyond this world, all I have left to discover in my journey though life. Yet, I am confined to my own little city to face issues that are simply monumental. It's a terrible feeling, to be back on the radar. I have now become a target. A target to everything that had lost track of me during my spring break, but is now coming full speed to attack me again.

I just want to get out of here.