Trapped

Human nature certainly puzzles me.

This time, it's not an observation that I have noted in other people, although I am sure that others feel this way too. I have observed such behavior in my own being, and it is something that I haven't felt in the longest time. It's almost humorous to explain what I am going through because of how childish and ridiculous it is. Regardless of the underlying immaturity that may be present, it is something that I feel should be expressed. There's gotta be one person out there who understands what I'm going through. Maybe everyone feels this way in one way or another. They're just afraid to admit it.

Okay. Here goes.

How is it possible to feel such overwhelming emotion for one person? I just don't understand how one can invest unfathomable amounts of feelings for another human being. Is it something that just occurs naturally? Because this feeling only seems to surface when I experience something in my life that involves someone I care about with undying loyalty. Even in times of tragedy of which I am so fond of, the feeling of missing one person due to loss or disconnection. What causes us to feel so strongly? Conversely, there is the opposite. Someone that you care about so much, you would go to any lengths to show it. It's a phrase tossed about so often, "I would do anything for you." The question is, would you? Unfortunately, there is no way to show that you would unless the situation arises where you were given the opportunity to do so.

The thing is, I'm caught in this situation.

But I have this deep, sincere instinct that leaves me on standby to do anything for this one person. I just haven't been able to show it yet. I'm trapped in my own emotional bind, like I'm not sure how to contain all of this emotion. The worst part is I'm not sure how much I should invest in this. If it were to be that my investment is wasted because of the situation I'm in, what do I do? Either way, I feel I am in emotional turmoil. My own overwhelming feelings are being used against me, and until compromise is reached, I just feel trapped.

Get me out of here.