It has been a rather long gap between my last blog post. Things have been very hectic lately, but it has been a very peaceful hectic at that. Organized chaos, if you will. However, a lot has been on my mind during my short hiatus. My patience has been tested to a point where even I'm not sure how I've overcome some of the things that are happening at this point. Strength seems to be spawning out of newly made crevices. But regardless, I have had so much on my mind.
One thing that hasn't changed.
For once, I'm completely content with the way things are going, which is ironic because this is probably one of the lowest points I can be at in my life. There's been some really hard financial troubles in my family, relationships that are becoming distilled, the stress of school coming soon...there's just too many things to list, really. But I've really been taking life in a different perspective lately. All of the positives that outweigh the despair, it's the light that rays through the openings in the black clouds just before the rain. It's a beautiful thing to see. I mean, I've been living on a day to day basis, and I've been learning to just live life. There's so many things to live for, and I've experienced that this week definitely. It's the most amazing feeling to overcome the things in life you thought were never possible and have a rewarding outcome. It took me a while to realize you just have to live life while you can.
Life is too short. It really is.
I know for a fact that we take that for granted. I've sat down and thought about this, I thought about it for a really long time. We all expect something from our lives, like we're living this life because we have to. We automatically assume that our life will be full, we wait for everything to come together just the way we want it to. I've experienced that feeling first hand. It's unfortunate, really. Life seems to just consume us all in this heavy greed. There isn't any time to open our eyes and realize that the sun has risen today, but instead we lust for the sunset that is in the coming years. Beauty in life quickly has seemed to fade away, replaced with the desire to make something out of life that we may never achieve.
Sometimes I forget why we even try.
It seems like all of the opportunity we want and spend our entire lives trying to make plagues not only our lives, but anyone who experiences that with you. Our lives are like the beautiful forest, abundant with green grass and vast meadows. Sacred, to a point. Not many people see the beauty that lies between the glistening leaves and the whispering winds. No, people see opportunity only. So we develop over this paradise, and we form ideas and buildings and industry that plow over the forest. There is nothing we can do but watch as the tyranny and greed of humanity plows over life. Nothing but pollution and waste lies where life once spawned freely.
Life certainly is a complicated thing.
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