Turn the Tide

It's been close to a month.

A lot can change in what seems like such a short time. Yet, day to day, hour to hour, time is always ticking. There is never a moment in life where something is not happening; needless to say in this retrospect, life goes on. Whether we decide to hop on the train and ride with life or dwell back at the station while life is passing us by miles away, or perhaps we are already at the next station, waiting for life to catch up. In either situation, it turns out that we are the makers of our own lives. We, single-handedly, are the creators of our own fate, what is to come, what is yet to be. Such power can reap incredible benefits or summon dire consequences based on the choices that we make. With decisions having to be made every second, what does that leave over the span of an entire month?

Radical change.

Certainly, something I've been realizing. The tides have turned, a new horizon surfaces on the skyline, revealing a brand new picture ahead of us. Yet, it seems that as the tide rolls out into the ether of ocean, I have been swallowed by the ravenous sea of troubles that have breached the surface as of late. No longer am I able to behold the new horizon, but instead dwell in the riptide of the past. Drowning. A month has taken an unbelievable toll on me, unfortunately for the worst. My sense of direction has been diluted like the water that binds me in its grip. Like the buffer of time underwater, it feels as if time has slowed down, every day drags on longer as my breath becomes thin in tolerance to the overwhelming amount of stress I have been dealt. If it is true that we are indeed the creators of our own fate, I must say to my misfortune I've created something terrifying: a monster.

A monster of fate.

This does not end my pursuit for the future, however. I have been faced with odds tremendously out of my favor, so many doubts to hinder any chances of progressing further from this nightmare. Yet, it is only the best to continue to tread water. Why? Simply, because the tide is ever changing. Although I have been swallowed by the drink since my last post, I am still close to the surface. I am merely working right now to return to land once more. When I break the surface of this sea of troubles, I will obviously come out a different person. But perhaps, this new me will be someone that I am happy with. To leave behind every piece of negativity that weighs me down, to reach the shore and begin to stand up on my feet once more. It's a distant goal. But it's one that I am confident to reach, regardless of what my present situation tells me. Hopefully, others can relate with me. I suppose what I really just want to let people know is that there's still hope. Maybe not a lot, but enough to pull you out of the ocean.

You just gotta keep treading water.

Passing Through

Hello to my readers.

It's been a couple of weeks since I've put out any new material. While I wish I could say that it is the product of laziness or a lack of ideas for what to blog about, this isn't the case. Things in my present life are...well, not so good. Circumstances beyond my control have limited my ability to have much free time anymore, as there are some bigger and more important matters in my life that I have to attend to. This isn't the end of my blog as we know it, but for now it is in the best interest that I put my blogging on hold for a little while. The events currently taking place in my life are rather personal, and I'd prefer not to keep everyone updated on what is going on. Just realize that even as a writer, I'm going though a great deal of difficulty and just need a little bit of support from whomever I can get it from. Perhaps this entire issue will blow over and I'll just be passing through the dark alley full of negatives, but until then I just have to keep walking. Sorry to my regular readers, and even my casual readers, but right now there are matters bigger than me that I have to deal with, successfully or otherwise. Thank you everyone for your continuing support, and I'll do my best to provide you with more material as soon as I can.

Thanks again, guys.